All Too Well (10 Minute Version)
I walked through the door with you the air was coldBut somethin’ bout it felt like home some howAnd i left my scarf there at your sister’s houseAnd you’ve still got it in your drawer even now
Oh your sweet disposition and my wide eyed gazeWe’re singing in the car getting lost upstateAutumn leaves falling down like pieces into placeAnd i can picture it after all these days
And i know it’s long gone andThat magic’s not here no moreAnd i might be ok but i’m not fine at all
Cause there we are again on thatLittle town streetYou almost ran the redCause you were looking over at meWind in my hair i was thereI remember it all too well
Photo album on the counterYour cheeks were turning redYou used to be a little kidWith glasses in a twin-sized bedAnd your mother’s telling stories‘Bout you on the tee ball teamYou taught me bout your pastThinkin your future was me
And you were tossing me the car keysFu*k the patriarchy’ keychain’ on the groundWe were always skipping townAnd i was thinking on the drive downAny time now he’s gonna say it’s love
You never called it what it wasTil we were dead and gone and buriedCheck the pulse and come backSwearing it’s the sameAfter 3 months in the grave
And then you wonderedWhere it went toAs i reached for you butAll i felt was shame
And you held my lifeless frameAnd i know it’s long gone andThere was nothing else i could doAnd i forget about you long enoughTo forget why i needed to-o-o-o
Cause there we are againIn the middle of the nightWe’re dancin’ round the kitchenIn the refrigerator lightDown the stairs i was thereI remember it all too well
And there we are againWhen nobody had to knowYou kept me like a secretBut i kept you like an oathSacred prayer and we’d swearTo remember it all too well
Well maybe we got lost in translationMaybe i asked for too muchBut maybe this thing was a masterpieceTil you tore it all up
Running scared i was thereI remember it all too well
And you call me up againJust to break me like a promiseSo casually cruel in the name of being honestI’m a crumpled up piece of paper lying here
Cause i remember it all all allThey say all’s well that ends wellBut i’m in a new hell every time
You double-cross my mindYou said if we had been closer in ageMaybe it would have been fineAnd that made me want to die
The idea you had of meWho was she?A never needy ever lovely jewelWhose shine reflects on you
Not weeping in a party bathroomSome actress asking meWhat happened youThat’s what happened you
You who charmed my dadWith self-effacing jokesSipping coffee likeYou were on a late night show
But then he watched me watchThe front door all night willingYou to come and he said:‘It’s supposed to be funTurning 21’
Time won’t flyIt’s like i’m paralyzed by itI’d like to be my old self againBut i’m still trying to find itAfter plaid shirt daysAnd nights when you made me your ownNow you mail back my thingsAnd i walk home alone
But you keep my old scarfFrom that very first weekCause it reminds you of innocenceAnd it smells like meYou can’t get rid of itCause you remember it all too well
Cause there we are againWhen i loved you soBack before you lostThe one real thingYou’ve ever known
It was rare i was thereI remember it all too well
Wind in my hair you were thereYou remember it allDown the stairs you were thereYou remember it all
It was rare i was thereI remember it all too well
And i was never good at telling jokesBut the punchline goes:“I’ll get older but your lovers stay my age”From when your brooklyn broke my skin and bonesI’m a soldier who’s returning half her weight
And did the twin flame bruise paint you blue?Just between us did the love affair maim you too?Cause in this city’s barren coldI still remember the first fall of snowAnd how it glistened as it fellI remember it all too well
Just between usDid the love affair maim youAll too well
Just between usDo you remember itAll too wellJust between usI remember itAll too well
Wind in my hairI was there i was thereDown the stairsI was there i was there
Sacred prayerI was there i was thereIt was rare you remember itAll too well
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