The Grudge
I have nightmares each week about that friday in mayOne phone call from you and my entire worldWas changed trust that you betrayedConfusion that still lingersYou took everything i lovedAnd crushed it in between your fingers
And i doubt you ever think about the damageThat you did but i hold onto every detailLike my life depends on itMy undying loveNow i hold it like a grudgeAnd i hear your voice every timeI think i’m not enoughAnd i try to be tough but i wanna screamHow could anybody do the thingsYou did so easily and i say i don’t careI say that i’m fineBut you know i can’t let it goI’ve tried i’ve tried i’ve tried for so longIt takes strength to forgive but i don’t feel strong
The arguments that i have won against youIn my head in the shower in the carAnd in the mirror before bed i’m so tough when i’m aloneAnd i make you feel so guiltyAnd i fantasize about a time you’re a little fucking sorryAnd i try to understand why you would do this all to meYou must be insecure you must be so unhappyAnd i know in my heart hurt people hurt peopleAnd we both drew blood but man those cuts were never equalAnd i try to be tough but i wanna screamHow could anybody do the things you did so easily
And i say i don’t care i say that i’m fineBut you know i can’t let it goI’ve tried i’ve tried i’ve tried for so longIt takes strength to forgive but i don’t feel strong
Ooh do you think i deserved it allOoh your flowers filled with vitriolYou built me up to watch me fallYou have everything and you still want more
I try to be tough i try to be meanBut even after all thisYou’re still everything to meAnd i know you don’t careI guess that that’s fineBut you know i can’t let it goI’ve tried i’ve triedI’ve tried for so long
It takes strength to forgive butI’m not quite sure i’m there yetIt takes strength to forgive but
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